Capture The Moment
Dearest Night Owls,
I felt like giving today's blog post the title of "Capture The Moment" because, literally and figuratively, it is a great reminder to capture the moment. Today, I feel that I captured a great deal of moments.
Tonight, when I arrived at work, I was able to see a fellow co-worker/friend that I don't see that often. This person, who shall remain nameless, is a guy that I did have a major crush on for three years. Yes, he does know this as does Evan. Like I mentioned before, timing and the irrationality of unrequited feelings are a fucking nightmare.
Anyway, the crush was finally crushed and all was somewhat good. Even though the feelings have died down, I still really care about this person. After all is said and done, I really wished that I could be close friends with this guy. Truly, he is one of the good guys. Tonight, he said something to me that provided more evidence that he is one of the really good guys. I was hoping to see him because I said something, while he was present in the room, that I wanted to apologize for saying in the moment. I swear, my big mouth is constantly getting me into huge trouble.
Tonight, I seized the moment by asking to speak with him before he left the building. I made sure to apologize for saying anything that may have made him uncomfortable, and then I made known some of the bigger concerns of that previous conversation, which I wanted to make clear. To provide context, I mentioned the crush that I had on him with the comparison to the current crush that I have on the raven-haired mystery man. Yeah, I am really like ridiculous. I swear, I feel like I am back in high school with all of this crush and feelings bullshit. Do you want to know what blew me away, tonight, while talking to this great guy? He said that he cares about me and understands that having these feelings can be difficult. He actually said so many comforting and caring statements, which is the kind of response that one should give to a person who may be struggling with a difficult situation. This is one of the many reasons why I crushed on this guy for three years.
While having this heartfelt talk, I started to cry because I was overwhelmed by the conversation. In the end, I felt so much relief and I definitely desire more to be friends with this person. He is a real friend, and I made sure to tell him so before he left. Eventually, I was able to stop crying. Unfortunately, crying often brings about a migraine headache.
By the end of my shift at work, my head was in excruciating pain. No matter how much pain I was in, though, I still managed to stick around work so I could spend some time with "Girl Squirrel" and another feline friend. Well, this other feline friend is more like a friend who likes to bite and scratch if you try to pet it. This cat will rub up against you like it loves you more than life itself, but then immediately start to attack you if you try to reciprocate a friendly affection toward it. I am not entirely sure if this cat is male or female. I just know that it is big and scares the clients in the facility. I just refer to this cat as "Gray Cat".
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