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Dearest Night Owls,
Welcome to the beginning of a new week! I hope it's the beginning to a great and prosperous week for all. I know, for me, it's the start to a very busy week. I am not just talking about work, either. I have something scheduled almost every day this week, and I need to get as much rest in as possible. Thus far, it has been a tough start, as far as restful sleep is concerned.
Last night, I couldn't stay asleep during the night. That isn't anything new. Lately, I have been having disturbing dreams. I keep waking myself from one unpleasant dream, only to fall back asleep to start another unpleasant dream. I recall my last dream from last night where I was struggling so much in my depression and there was no one who really cared or wanted to help. I was attempting to reach out for help, and there was no one who cared enough. In fact, one person laughed at me when I talked about my desire to die by suicide and then I found out that my so-called therapist had decided that they no longer wanted to work with me. Again, this was all in my dream and not based in reality. The feelings, however, were very real and left me feeling incredibly lonely. The first time that I woke up was right before the clock turned over to 04:00 AM. The second time that I woke up was sometime after 06:23 AM. I decided to wake up, for the rest of the morning, to get myself to readjust my sleep schedule for the new week.
I spent the morning watching television, reading, and completing some chores around the house. By noon, I was feeling really tired. I decided to take that opportunity to get some more sleep. It didn't last very long because I ended up waking myself up after 03:00 PM. This whole fractured sleep issue is getting extremely annoying and I really would like it to stop. Earlier today, I did receive a call from mental health services to schedule an emergent therapy session, at the request of my psychiatrist. Now, I have an upcoming appointment this Friday to speak with some unknown therapist. I am not expecting much to come from it, but I am grateful that there will be someone that I can talk to about what has been happening. I am immensely thankful to have insurance and a reliable mental health care service that is available to me. Everyone should have the kind of resources and availability to mental healthcare, regardless of insurance. Like healthcare for any other physical health concern, mental healthcare should be thought of as equally important.
Speaking of support for mental health services, this weekend is the annual NAMI Walk. I have been participating in the NAMI Walk since like 2008. I started walking in the NAMI Walk to support my former nephew, now niece. Yeah, I am an aunt to a trans kid. Loud and proud, baby! I hope that I am not oversharing a personal detail, without my niece's permission. I want to be super supportive and acknowledge that I love my niece very much. I am so proud of her and think that transitioning at such a young age is very brave. At that time, I was invited to participate in the NAMI Walk to support my sister's child, though, I also wanted to show my support for the NAMI organization because I have been struggling with mental health since I was also very young. I was all for participating in the walk to support another family member because it's so important to let a loved one know that they are not alone in their struggle. After walking with a huge number of community members, all of whom are walking for very similar reasons, I was hooked. Since 2008, I have been walking and participating every year. I am pretty sure it's been since 2008. The years have been kind of blurring together, which is why I need to keep some sort of log or journal so that I keep the memories alive.
💖👣 The 2021 NAMI WALK is COMING SOON❣ There is still time to JOIN THE MOVEMENT FOR MENTAL HEALTH❣️ GO TEAM CASCADIA❣️ 👣💖
NAMIWalks Northwest is Saturday, May 22nd❣️
@cascadia_bhc
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