Wellness Wednesday

Dearest Night Owls,

Guess what? Today, I was able to get more sleep. I only recall waking up twice, during the day. When I eventually woke up, I definitely felt more rested.

At the time, I woke up, I could hear Evan talking to an unknown voice coming from the front door. Apparently, there are people who are still going door-to-door to sell or offer to perform a service. Call me a cynic, but I don't trust solicitors or anyone who just happens to come to my door wanting to sell something. Perhaps I am being too afraid or paranoid, but I don't trust people who just randomly show up at my door. I know, I shouldn't allow fear to rule my life. However, having a healthy amount of fear isn't necessarily a bad thing. There is a reason why, while growing up, I have been often warned to never open the front door to strangers. You have heard of stranger danger, yes? I definitely have, throughout my years on this planet. I also have watched and read too many true horror stories about predators who use ploys, like soliciting or fake emergencies, as an excuse to come to front doors of random homes with the goal to do some incredibly heinous things to unsuspecting victims.

How does being afraid of random strangers, just showing up at my front door, pertain to wellness? Possibly nothing. Possibly everything. I mean, isn't it a form of wellness to want to survive? I'd like to think so. What other examples of wellness that I would like to point out, from today, that I would like to mention? Well, for example, I am currently relaxing on my living room couch and watching Parks and Recreation on the television.

Today, I received a package early. The package is a box of multiple bags of tea and a container of collagen and tumeric to mix in with a container of water. I have never tried this product before, so I am anxious to try it and see what happens. It's supposed to have a great deal of dietary properties, but who knows if anything will actually work. Only time will tell.

Tonight, I plan to bring a bag of tea of the regular tea and a mug with me to work. I am only really planning on drinking this stuff while I'm at work. Maybe, on the weekends, I'll drink some if I'm up for it. I want to try to do more to improve my overall health and wellness. I'm planning on starting off slow, so I don't end up becoming overwhelmed by all of the sudden changes.

Today, I am grateful that I took some time to focus on my wellness goals. I went to bed at a reasonable hour, I watched some television, played with my cats, showered, dressed myself in some fun Disney style clothes, and drove myself to and from work. I wish that I could say that I am done pining away for the raven-haired mystery man. Nope, no such luck. A piece of me still longs to hear my phone ring and to hear his voice on the other line. Is that pathetic? Maybe. I'm okay with admitting that because I sure as hell have nothing to be ashamed of. I have no regrets telling him the truth about how I feel about him, even if nothing positive came from that. At least I can say that I wasn't a coward who stood by silently and did nothing. I did something, while he chose to do nothing. It's still a puzzle that I will probably never get to solve, which is infuriating to me. That's life, right? It's doesn't feel okay now, but hopefully it will start to get better soon. I just have to take a step back, breathe, and focus on the positives in life.

I hope you all are finding ways to take care of your wellness. I wish you all peace and happiness on your journeys.

P.s. Don't forget to show off your pride❣️ I know that I will be❣️ 🏳️‍🌈💕🌈